Trials

I look alright
And that's a lie.
I smile a lot,
But half are wry.
My same regrets
Go looping by and by.
Still I try, still I try.

Bought promises
Look now like lies.
Damaged goods
And I know why.
I took no love
And gave all mine.
This too shall pass,
They say, the sun still shines.
So I try, and I try.

My beauty masks
My ugly pride.
I am lazy, selfish,
And angry inside.
You heard my thoughts,
You'd try to hide.
I'll find a way
To get it right.
I try! I Try! I TRY!

I'm exhausted.
Just sobs and sighs.
I'm giving up,
Refuse to strive.
My dreams have all
Gone cold and dry.
I need some help,
I finally cry,
All by myself,
I tried: I tried.

Love finds me, hits
His knees and dies.
I'm.....alive?